So we’re at a new school and want to make a good impression on the school and it’s teachers.
Of course, we’re just guaranteed to do the exact opposite. Isn’t there something about trying too hard.
On picking up E after her second day of school, the teacher makes a point of coming out to me just to touch base you know cause E had a meltdown over math. AND…. the learning assistance coordinator and her would like to meet with us this week. Ummmm, she’s been in school exactly two days and already she’s headed for learning assistance.
It’s always hard figuring out how to respond to “we had a meltdown today” because after all I know exactly what those meltdowns are like and… somehow a part of me feels like it’s my fault. If I had more patience, was a better parent etc.
To top it off in the middle of the teacher talking with me, O decides to act up by climbing on railings and squishing J, to which I hear cries of “mommy, mommy”. I try to stop O but there is no way he’s going to listen to me and as I try to pry his 4 year old hands from the bar… I’m struck helpless and hopeless of saving any sort of good impression I’d hope to foster. … Because of course he wouldn’t listen and I ended up telling the teacher I better go, she agreed and walked away. Oh yea. While I continued to pry O off the bars.
Talk about embarrassing.
All I can do is shrug it off, put it out of my mind and hope she doesn’t think I’m one of those ineffective parents that threaten a lot and never follow through. Then again, I shouldn’t care what she thinks. It is what it is and I know that I try my best to follow through on consequences.
When I’m at home and it’s just me and the kids, I’m pretty confident about my parenting style. When I’m out in public though and under the watchful eyes of others, I’m less than confident and worry that I’m not saying or doing the right thing. Especially in front of someone I’ve just met.
Then again, the fact that I can’t seem to keep the kids from acting up in public these days might just reflect that my parenting style at home isn’t working all that well.
Sigh… this parenting thing is not easy.